Tummy Troubles

Today is one of those days where I just feel fat and gross. I know it's only been eight weeks, and "it took nine months to put it on, it won't come off overnight" etc etc. but that still doesn't make me like looking in the mirror. I've gotten used to the bigger boobs, and my legs and butt have gone mostly back to normal (although some extra muscle there wouldn't hurt), and my arms might even be a little stronger due to toting our little (big) bundle around. But the belly...I'm so over this belly. I feel like two months postpartum looks more like three months pregnant. But not in a cute way.

People have been really nice and told me that I look great, but in a way that almost makes it worse because I feel pressure to impress. Sometimes I actually feel like a fraud- if they really knew what was under all my loose cardigans and drapey tops, they'd take back all those compliments. Getting dressed has become a challenge, trying to find things that fit my new shape, and camouflage my poochy tummy (nevermind the added difficulty of making sure my outfits lend themselves to nursing).

A few weeks ago, I felt a bit better because it was still early so any progress counted. But now I feel like it should be closer to "the old me", and am wondering if that will ever happen. I know I'm probably being too hard on myself, but I also know that it's going to take some hard work to get back to a place where I feel confident. Some stuff may never be the same as it was, but I'm hopeful that I can somehow find my new normal, and be proud not only of how I look, but more importantly, of what my body is capable of. In the meantime, I think I'll just put Piper in cute outfits and hold her in front of my tummy. Problem temporarily solved.